In Memory of......

Yesterday I received a not so pleasant call from my mom that my Granddad passed away that morning.
I didn't know what to say or how to feel. The only way I can describe my feelings is that I felt very bad. I felt bad that I lived too far away to get to know him the way I should have; I felt bad that I never sent him my graduation invitation and picture, because I was careless enough to lose my  uncle's address; and  I felt bad when my mom said she hadn't gotten around to sending him letters in the nursing home, because I  also had been too busy to think of it either. Most of all I felt bad because none of us went out of our way to witness the love of Christ to him. My hope is that he knew the Lord and we will see him one day in heaven.


What's my best memory of Grandpa Josh? Every year until I was twenty or twenty-one my Grandpa sent me a birthday card with twenty dollars in it. The cards were always the prettiest ones ever and I saved everyone of them. I remember feeling sad when I was too old to get them anymore.

Grandpa/ Joyce Joshua: this post is for you.

Stupid Youtubers Comments

First of all I  just have to say that I'm sorry for not writing in a while. I love to write so much, and yet I get too distracted to make myself sit down and do it! I have plenty on my heart and mind that I want to express, but I usually put family, work , and housework ahead of the things I desperately would like to accomplish.

So what's on my mind now? Today I was checking my Youtube account , which I haven't been on much lately, and found a disturbing comment on my channel page from someone I had never spoken to online. It went as follows," Stupid nigger you should be killed". Honestly  I can say this is probably the first time anything like that has been said to me. My initial response, in my mind, was that it was just another stupid Youtuber making a foul comment for no reason. It did shock me though that  someone would stoop to post something so vile on my page. The only explanation I could think of, is that they purposely go to people of color's pages to troll;or that I commented on a video they were also looking at. Needless to say, I removed the comment from my channel page promptly.



All in all, I think people should remember never to take a forum or blog so seriously, that they think they have to fight valiantly to the end  over their opinions. And for the people who are trolling, they obviously have no lives.